two weeks off of nicotine
Being nicotine free is a good thing, obviously. I have to keep telling myself that this is a good thing - that it's necessary for top surgery on the 30th, and for my recovery from that to go smoothly. But god, do I miss nicotine. I can absolutely see myself going back to it eventually.
The substance was apparently the load bearing thing keeping the rest of my mental health issues in check, because since I cut it out I've just spiralled into a barely functioning bundle of white noise. Without going into a detailed rant, my unmedicated ADHD is - quite literally, no hyperbole - ruining everything.
I tried to ask my local doctor about getting something to help, but they've surprisingly stopped doing adult support here via the NHS. You only get meds / support now if you're under 18 and struggling in school due to your diagnosis, or if you have the money to go private. It's truly an insane stance to take on a condition that affects so many people.
I probably will go private eventually, but it'll be a good while after surgery because an appointment costs Β£550. Because fuck you if you live in Northern Ireland and dare to have ADHD, I guess.
:/