i'm still here (・_・)ノ
It's pretty obvious I didn't post anything in June.
There's a couple reasons for that.
The first is that the first half of June is hard for me. I lost my father very suddenly in 2021, so every year since then I experience a handful of shitty emotions around that time. I won't go too deep here, but anyone who's lost someone knows how grief can be an insidious thing. I generally feel very disconnected for a while around the anniversary.
I might write about it in more depth some day, to help process some of it or just share my experience or something. My reactions then and how I've been handling it since have... confused those in my offline life a bit, and that's fine. They're not the one with my mind, so I don't expect them to understand. But maybe sharing it someday might make someone else feel less alone about it if they feel similar. IDK.
Anyway, the other reasons I wasn't posting are more positive.
I started a journal! Like a proper handwritten one. I got a little puncher to make custom stamps to keep in it, and a little portable printer to print out stickers of photos I take on my phone. After top surgery I ended up deep in some bad screentime habits because I couldn't really move much or go anywhere, and I wanted to cut that down substantially. This felt like a good way to do it. It's been really nice.
I also realised I was spending too much time on games that have no true ending, like MMOs and Gachas. To combat that I picked one gacha to focus on (Punishing Gray Raven) and then locked in on finishing some games I really wanted to play. Finished four games in June which I posted about here on my Instagram. I also started reading again, which I also posted about on Instagram. I like making those type of posts so I plan to do more in the future.
Overall, despite the rough start to June the end of it has been really good. I'm doing my best to build good habits and I'm having fun doing it. I might not do as many round up posts here if I'm doing image based ones on Instagram, but we'll see.
The plan for July is to attempt to dive into studying a particular topic, which I'm doing in a separate journal specifically for that. I'm gonna be looking into Religion and Violence up until the end of the month, then maybe I'll do something for Shark Week. I'm excited about it.