dopamine dips suck, bro
So, I finished Persona 3 Reload a few days back.
It's taken 18 years, but I finally broke the Stuck in October curse1. The ending is a tragedy, and already knowing about it made watching it feel so much more heavy. I can't imagine what it must've been like for people who didn't know on their first run. Absolute banger of a game.
What's this got to do with the title, you ask? Well. I've joked before about my brain being wired wrong2, and this is yet another part of it. I'm notorious for procrastinating in many aspects of my life, but I put off finishing shows and games specifically because I always get really fuckin' down about it afterwards.
And I hate that.
It's difficult to put into words, but there's a sense of... listlessness that lingers after finishing something. Time feels like it crawls by at a snails pace. Boredom feels almost physically painful. I start missing whatever it was, even though I know I can always go back and rewatch / replay something at literally any time. This is probably me just missing the comfort of a routine or the good brain chemicals it gave me, I'm sure.
But since I finished P3R I'm in the in between 'what now?' spot where I'm waiting for something else to grab me, staring at my backlog for something to pop out. I'll probably just replay New Vegas for the billionth time, or try and fix my severely broken Skyrim.